If there is one thing I know about myself is that I’m crazy and complicated! One minute I could be mediating and in the zen zone and the next moment I’m on my Amy Winehouse behaviour. I’m done trying to box myself into a category of what I am because I don’t know.
I used to like Jameson and now I drink wine like its water. I spend hours on YouTube learning Britney Spears dance routines to only get into the club and turn into Beyonce. I get lonely and dwell in self-pity then I get up preach like Oprah. To some friends I am Dr. Phil and to others I am the friend your mother tells you stay away from.
I will work out for two hours and come home and order the biggest burger at Steers, l am a hopeless romantic but I friendzone everyone. I count down the days until I can go back home and cry when it’s time to say goodbye.
I love so hard but my pride holds me back. I emotional yet emotionally unavailable to those who need to see it most. I listen to Tori Kelly until she gets tired of singing to me and when that happens I become Rick Ross and rap myself to sleep.
I love being at home and reading but I love to dance on tables. I love a good read but TMZ gives me life. I drink too much and cry about all my regrets and then I wake up ready to make new ones. I run 5km to only get home and smoke like a chimney. I get angry at God when things don’t go my way to only thank him later for saving me from myself.
I get high and laugh myself to sleep and sometimes I get too high and become Bob Marley’s wife. I work hard for months and blow my savings in 2 minutes.
I complain about my skin problems yet I cake on the make up and sometimes sleep with it on because I’m too drunk or lazy to take if off. I mediate for 10 minutes and open one eye to see if my phone is flashing. I vow never to drink again only to be the first to pour shots.
I could go on and on and on.
I’m complicated but that’s just me and I embrace my craziness 🙂
6th personality signing out!